From March 6:

Well.

I talked to M today for five hours.

It's out. There it is. Everyone ok? Someone get Maddie some water. She looks pale.

I was going to make a list of all of the the things I feel right now, but it started to look like a page out of a Thesaurus. For every word I listed, I also listed its opposite: satisfied/dissatisfied. Happy/unhappy. Immersed/distant.

It's hard to describe...well, really anything about this.

The inside of my head is like a swimming pool after a really windy Fall.